the Dates : Revealed

Salam Semua...
reviewing all of the things needed...
im revealing the Dates..

Since my Atok Rashid is the head (i mean, he is still the Elderly in our family) of the family...We all have to follow his rules...as in the Adat Perkahwinan (i know My Sayang dun like it..but he said, Follow jelah)

So, the Adat in Malay Culture :-

Merisik

Adat ini juga dipanggil meninjau atau menengok. Tujuan adat ini dilakukan adalah untuk memastikan bahawa gadis yang dihajati oleh seorang lelaki itu masih belum berpunya. Ini penting, kerana dalam Islam seseorang itu dilarang meminang tunangan orang.

Meminang

Setelah diketahui bahawa gadis tersebut belum berpunya, pihak keluarga lelaki akan menetapkan hari untuk menghantar satu rombongan peminangan. Urusan peminangan akan dilakukan oleh kaum keluarga terdekat pihak lelaki. Adat ini dilakukan bagi menyatakan tujuan mereka yang sebenarnya secara rasmi. Saudara-mara kedua-dua belah pihak akan berunding untuk menetapkan tarikh dan masa yang sesuai untuk adat bertunang pula.

The Date for Merisik n Meminang : 28 November 2011 @ My home

Bertunang

Selepas perbincangan diadakan, majlis pertunangan akan dilangsungkan. Pihak lelaki akan diwakili oleh ahli keluarga dan saudara mara terdekatnya untuk upacara bertunang.

The Date for Bertunang : January 2012 @ My home (time CNY)

Akad Nikah

Akad nikah merupakan satu acara paling penting dalam perkahwinan masyarakat Melayu yang rata-ratanya beragama Islam. Ia bukan suatu adat tetapi lebih kepada ajaran agama dan merupakan kemuncak kesahihan sesuatu perkahwinan. Upacara ini dijalankan selepas segala perjanjian yang dikenakan kepada pihak lelaki telah dilaksanakan seperti wang belanja, mas kahwin dan barangan lain sepertimana yang dipersetujui oleh kedua belah pihak. Akad nikah boleh dilakukan di masjid, di pejabat kadi atau pun di rumah pengantin perempuan dan dijalankan oleh tok kadi atau imam. Di dalam upacara akad nikah, bapa pengantin perempuan perlu menjadi wali untuk menikahkan anaknya. Walau bagaimanapun, dia juga boleh mewakilkannya kepada tok kadi atau imam.

The Date for Akad nikah : 6 April 2012 @ My home (a day before my Birthday!)

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so...hehehe...we jus bought the cincin bekah rotan..simple jer design n not expensive...i dun wear a gold ring (time raya jer given by my ma) at all time...so this is my first cutesy golden ring from My Sayang...thank u sayang..n sorry, not much of a choice to pick n i dun want u to waste it..Im eyeing for nikah nnt ;p hehehehe...thank u Lurve..

alhamdulillah~~

actuallu..post ni tersangatlah lama simpan...sepatutnyer sebelum post

3 Months, 4 Weeks, 2 Days to go...

....so, ape suda jadi??

xde majlis tunang..majlis risik terus ditunangkan...read the upper post aite :)

Little Attic Art GA!!!!

As i was browsing through facebook, i click on my future sis in-law facebook along

i know that along is a very creative person...i know she likes to do all these creative stuff such as jahit baju (i consider it as creative..it needs creativity!), quilling and paper crafts...

from Along's fcebook page i come across this creative blog too called Lin Handmade Greetings Card. Sgt chomey card2 beliau!! love it!!

then....

there's the GIVE AWAY POST!!

by 

Little Attic Art Give Away...

Anyone can join this GA. Be it a Blogger OR a Facebooker. And guess, anywhere you are...

All you need to do is make a post about this giveaway and make sure there's a link to the PAGE!!

Then. In the comment box under the original post, please leave...

Your Name , Your Email , Your Posted Link

PRIZES TO BE WON?? ~~~>> Little Attic Art's Product

DEADLINE??? ~~~>> 28th December 2011

3 Lucky Winners will be picked randomly and the winners will be announced on

30th December 2011.

i hope i can win something :)

i like to try quilling...i like to start being creative again...

i remember my school years where i really enjoy painting, paper craftings and especially frame designing...i remember acrylic painting days with my mom..

i miss those happy n non-stressing moments...

the best thing is.....you are able to see the end product...and be proud of it...

i think mom still hv her acrylic paints somewhere hidden in the store room....MOM!!!

admiring quilling Guest Book...aaaahhh~~

wedding outfit...scary moment...pening kepala!!! B2B in Distress

dearest bloggers...need ur kind help...minggu nih nak kene hantar design baju utk bertandang...

this is the type tht they gave me...

HELP!!

Design A

 Design B

I like em both cume less flowery design for A and simplify the top...and for B, minus the cross section on the chest....i felt vulnerable lorr wearing tht kind of dress..but i like the tudung style..chomel jugakla..

but, some of my fwens suka A (esp en H2B) and also B for my fwens...

but...i hve some other fwens suggestions....

design nih mcm baju kebaya...cantek kan??

 Design nih pun simple :)

both are really nice...the 1st n 2nd mcm design A rite??

so i tot..gabungkan Design A and the kebaya one...plus with extra like ribbons n also gaya tudung...like this....

so how??? help meeeee....

B2B in distress mode :((

Left Unnoticed

the weeks are hectic..and now im at last at the office..
too much of work and im too, having problems finishing it...
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blaming on the time wasted ;p
so..
even the wedding preparation is actually = PENDING
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yup...seriously :((
so...

im heading back to kajang...to work on the..
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SAPE YG BERDENGKUR PAGI2 NI KAT OPIS???
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wth......

im hungry..better find something to eat before work start
...owh...the wedding preparation can wait :)

3months to go..

Stunning ME!!! By QASEH ELYN

badge Qaseh

this is goin to be my 1st entering a contest...selalunya tgk org lain je masuk contest..tak sure boleh menang ke tak....
so..WHY NOT GIVE IT A TRY ?? mana tahu, kowt menang...well...fingers cross but no high hopes...hope mmg ada...but kita BERUSAHA, ALLAH MENENTUKANNYA...

so, here goes...

Contest Stunning Me by Qaseh Elyn...

my dream veil for nikah nnt..
simple as possible...im in love with pearlss...sgt2 suka dengan taburan pearls and beads... it looks beautiful...

THE LENGTH...

not so long and not sooo short...sedang-sedang jer...yg ni sweet kan?? and the details is so nice as well ^_^


THE LACE and BEADS DETAILS...

sangat suka detail lace yg macam nih...it looks so sweet n suci..hehe :) and kalau boleh nak letak small pearls or beads on the edge of the veil..elegant tak??


THE HEAD PIECE...

nowadays suke tgk head piece..tak sure boleh di adapatasikan ke atau pon tak...but...this one is nice..some have it on CEKAK with Ribbons...it looks cute...dont u think?? klw org orbesi dia guna tiara or headpiece utk stick on the veil to the hair...i think malays now also wear headpiece on their veils too...kan??

tapi my problem is..im not sure tudung berawning sesuai dgn my face...cause last time i use it, my MR AA kata MUKA MACAM IKAN KEMBUNG....

T_T huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...nak nangis!!!

so, i stick to wearing selendang!
but i love this style....

sangat CANTIK!!! sangat sweet and compliment the face of the wearer....muka bulat and penuh macam epal ni boleh la kan pakai macam nih??

hehe..so, ok tak?? rasa2nya boleh menang tak Ms ELYN???


hopefully...InsyaAllah :)

3 Months, 4 Weeks, 2 Days to go...

Regarding to the numbers of people reading this blog..hehe..i know that no one really cares ;p

so, let me tell you a story..

jeng jeng jeng...

Title then  right now : Engaged!!

Starting Date : 28th November 2011

hehehe..im happy...

well..its my Atok Rashid's Idea plus my mum..

the "rombongan" jus came for Risik purpose only...not the Actual Proposal...

so..the discussion went on (which i dont know the real content of the discussion =_=!!)

and my Org2 tua decide to terus kan je with perTunangan...

So..I am Halfway There ^_^

Alhamdulillah ~~~

 so...regarding to the number of people reading this blog..what is my intention doing such blog??

"Telling My Heart Out!"

@_@"

Salam Takziah

Salam takziah untuk seluruh keluarga kak Laila (drafter Vickers Hoskins) yang telah pulang ke Rahmatullah pagi ini...
semoga Rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang Soleh dan Solehah...

Al-Fatihah...

Semoga Keluarga Allahyarhamah tabah menghadapi dugaan ini...

when everything is too much to ask for...

yup..seriously...
headache..
kenapa yerk??
adoyaiii...
do i have to lay everything out...
hmm..human...errors..

well...this is the situation whereby dealing with subordinates, clients, bosses...

im not trying to say that im perfect in every way but everyone has it own flaws..
but for the simplest thing to do...
can't they do it right??
or can't they think of doing it right??

i dont know...
i guess i better do my job...
and finish it on time...
and jgn sibuk dengan kerja orang lain...

selfish huh?? who cares anyway...

Day 5 - A photo of you making a funny face

dunno mane yg funny...

@_@

1st pic with my lil sis aida otw to Bangkok, Thailand taken by Yaya kowt...

yg 2nd pic, with Amir Aris @ Tasik Kenyir...thanks to Azhan for the luverly picx

Day 4 - A photo that makes you happy.

my darling Notty Boi..the boi that always beside me..

tak kire sedih atau ketawa..

Ron

now aged 1 year 5 months kowt...plz refer calendar..hahah

sowi darling, Mummy forgot..

but mummy never forgot you rite..

bagi makan minum tmpat tido sume cukup kannnn??

kalau mummy balik kajang, Ron oso follow muumy ritee???

nyauuu~~~<3

One Step @ a Time

one step at a time..yes, this is definitely the way i need to follow....
i recently have so many problems...and i couldnt focus anything...not each one of them...
i fear the most that i will collapse and fail...
nevertheless with my dearest on my side and good friends to help and advice...
one step at a time...

1. inspection and agihan surat
2. billing
3. SKT  sudah update!!! 1/11/2011...tapi masih tak mencapai skt yg dikehendaki...kene kerja keras lagi!
4. SKT annie  yg ni dah update 1/11/2011..pening pale tgk...sbb tak update utk total..haha..so, now sudah update...sila cik annie kite ni update bil skt nyer ^_^
5. Perbicaraan Kes Maut  settle 1/11/2011..OKS tukar pengakuan dari tidak bersalah kpd bersalah...
seriously nervous in front of the judge...im cold as a froggy..huhu..charge fined rm10,000....
6. Masalah Subordinate yang tak reti nak menerima arahan saya sebagai Supervisor dia..ape, dia ingat dia sorang je ke yang ada degree...helllo!! i own a degree at a much younger age lorr..sibuk sgt ngan degree dia..
ini dah settle with my boss...its up to him..i laid down 3 points about this subordinate that i think its best for me to let the upper hand take the action...
7. file tindakan segera yang tak amik2 lagi tindakan
8. wedding planner ;p
9. KIK - Fokus utk ETHICS menjawab telepon kat opis.....40% ..nak carik bahan n siapkan presentation...wahahaa...

more to come i suppose...but today, i did no 6.
totally menyusahkan hidup..but its ok, as a good experience trying to handle HUMAN ERROR in A HUMAN...
seriously, this guy is a headache to the company...jus like he said so..

need to do my inspection now..PASIR GUDANG..

Day 3 - A photo of someone you love

i tot this would be the best pic

and i love them very much indeed

this is last year pic during my uncle Andak Razif's wedding.

ayah, mama....kaklong rindu!

hugs n kisses

Day 2 - A photo of yourself a year ago

a year ago....im so kurus..

hehehe ;p

and i miss this dark green baju...

it got lost somwhere..

my dad bought it for me...

ayah...i miss u...

Day 1- Your Facebook profile photo.

My Facebook profile photo was Raya Eidulfitri 2011...

credits to Yaya for this beautiful picture...

i looked happy...

although secretly  obviously i was going thru a rough patch of a long relationship that ended early Ramadhan...

but...Smile On... It was best for both of us... 

My Decision n Fate already Written for us

10 Days Picture Challenge

taken from my sister's blog..macam best jer.. :p

Day 1- Your Facebook profile photo.
Day 2 - A photo of yourself a year ago
Day 3 - A photo of someone you love.
Day 4 - A photo that makes you happy.
Day 5 - A photo of you making a funny face.
Day 6 - A photo of what I would find in your bag.
Day 7 - A photo of you and your best friend.
Day 8 - A photo of something you want to do before you die.
Day 9 - A photo you have taken.
Day 10 - A photo that makes you laugh.

(They Long to Be) Close to You

(They Long to Be) Close to You

The Carpenters

Why do birds suddenly apear 

Every time you are near? 

Just like me, they long to be Close to you. 

Why do stars fall down from the sky 

Every time you walk by? 

Just like me, they long to be Close to you.

 On the day that you were born and the angels got together 

And decided to create a dream come true

 So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold 

And starlight in your eyes of blue.

That is why all the girls in town 

Follow you all around 

Just like me, they long to be Close to you. 

On the day that you were born and the angels got together 

And decided to create a dream come true

 So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold 

And starlight in your eyes of blue. 

That is why all the girls in town 

Follow you all around

 Just like me, they long to be Close to you. 

Just like me, they long to be Close to you.

a little potion of stress...

its the end of the year 2011...
everyone is stress..
work related stress
relationship stress
family stress
marriage stress...
owh..money stress
haha

im sooooo having all of these stresses along the way..

thanks to A-square..for knowing to make me laugh...even a little...

hope today will be better..Insya Allah
^_^"

Getting into the process...

i get different feedbacks from him and others...
do i need to clarify?
pecah kepala...

process
step by step
timeline
action
target

everything needs to be in order.
right??

yeap

@_@

Pick a Pocket

$.$
money problem...
yup..im running my bills in credit card and now, credit card is a problem..
paying...
i told you soooooooo....
well, my bad..so, now i need to do something about it...
yup...memenuhkan segala masalah dibenak kepalaku ini..
adoyaiii...
so, everything seems to be on track..
and everything seems to be in cash nowadays..
i realize how powerful credit card is..
even so, cash is more safer...



moral of the story...dont go shopping with ur credit card :p

Close to You

(They Long to Be) Close to You
The Carpenters

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be Close to you.

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be Close to you.

On the day that you were born and the angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be Close to you.

On the day that you were born and the angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be Close to you.
Just like me, they long to be Close to you.

Cheese Cake recipe..

nom nom nom...cheese cake recipe from my dear cousin :)

serious time raye hari tu dia buat sedap..insyaallah boleh try :)

cake chocolate buat kat JB lagi sedap...y ek??

hurmm....

1 cup crushed cracker
2 tbsp unsalted butter/regular butter

Filling:
2 (500g) pack cream cheese, softened
1/3 cup sugar
1 tsp vanilla extract
2 cups cool whip topping, thawed (whipped cream will also do)
1 jar of blueberry preserves (use as much as u prefer as topping)
1 tsp unflavored colorless gelatin
3 tbsp water

How to make it :

1. Combine all the crust ingredients with a fork until well blended. 

Press in a 9 inch pie pan. Chill in the fridge for about 15 minutes.

2. Beat the cream cheese and sugar in a bowl with an electric mixer. Add in vanilla extract.

3. Dissolve the gelatin in the water and add in the cream cheese mixture. 

Beat until well blended and cream cheese fluffy.

4. Add in the cool whip and fold gently.

5. Spoon over crust and let chill in the fridge for about 3 hours or until set. 

Top with some blueberry preserves or fresh ones which ever you prefer. 

Can do your favorite fruit topping too!

Can't Stop

i can't stop surveying!!! help!!!

=_= seriously...

how am i goin to finish my work like this meh???

=_= seriously!!

Nasihat untuk Today

" Beza Bijak and Bijaksana
Bijaksana = Fatonah = to deliver expectations and words within the given time as expected by individuals
Bijak = based on certification only..  "

" Org yang Pandai Bercakap / Berkata-kata = Kerja Tak Jalan (Org macam ni perlu diteliti)
Org yang Senyap = Kerja Jalan "

Nasihat for Today

"be more mature and more confident in anything that you decide" -- A2 , 9 Sept '11

"learn to understand not to override"

"learn to understand the situation jgn mudah melatah"
"if have a problem..talk n describe in a nice way...dont create unnecessary temper.."
"think b4 u say n b4 what u want 2 do"
"treat with respect and caring in the relationship..u will gain his utmost love n respect" -- Haisan, 12 Sept '11

the plans

im nervous
hopefully menjadi planning nih insyaallah...
now, im more doin survey...
takkan nak mengharap kat orang saja...
ape-ape pun...Pelan-pelan Kayuh tapi kene tetap berkayuh walaupun perlahan :)
end of the month, jalan-jalan beraya...
tak sabar :)
early stage of new discoveries...

saya sangat nervous yer...bukan takot...

next month kursus...cepat2 lah dapat tempat...
=_+"

awaits for confirmation kerja juga...saye nak confirm cepat
but i need to upgrade myself
upgrade = mature @ work
upgrade = work performance tip top
upgrade = no more being .... pinkish

advice given...i was teed up... advice taken walaupun terasa...

kalau its good for me, dont worry, i will accept it... :)

saye..sangat-sangat nervous

saye...punya high expectations

saye sangat-sangat confident...

tetibe ~~~ :)

balloons of hugs ~~~<3


...asek pk kerja tak habis n menimbun2..but kerja tak jalan2 juga..mcm mane mau habis kalau kerja tak jalan....apekah?? @_@
Ms Nadya...please do ur work!!!

things to do today :)

1. Carotino Card n CF to settle n hantar pada Admin

2. Carotino Billings to settle for 2011

3. Other Companies billings (end of 2010 n early 2011)

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surat-surat untuk di-distributekan...

yer..saye spongebob utk hari ni

hopefully my face doesnt show much of these emotion ;p

headache pulak but when i think-think back...its jus opinion..execute or not is up to me...

@_@

owh..KIK lagi..walawehhh~~

Stress...

theres so many things to THINK...
STRESSSS...

yup..im in a stress state...
alot..
i even done my chocolate cake midnite baking..
carzy..jus to take the stress away..

something to do now...

going to d apotic..my flu is getting worse ;(
hate it

raya tahun 2011

balik raye ey!! balik raye ey!!

balik raye ey!!
balik raye ey!!

balik raye ey!!
balik raye ey!!

balik raye ey!!
balik raye ey!!

balik raye ey!!
balik raye ey!!


^_^ dgn tersayang ;p

Next 2 You

this song reminds of someone once said to me...

"I will be beside you...not in front, not behind, not on top nor below...but beside you."

and this song is a sweet romantic song ^^," 

Tq for letting me know that...you will always be beside me..(or next to me ^_^!!)

You’ve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
That you keep that smile.

you are my dream,
There’s not a thing I won’t do.
I'd give my life up for you,
'Cause you are my dream.

And baby, everything that I have is yours,
You will never go cold or hungry.
I’ll be there when you’re insecure,
Let you know that you’re always lovely.
Girl, 'cause you are the only thing that I got right now.

One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.

If you had my child,
You would make my life complete.
Just to have your eyes on a little me, << sgt2 cair dgn ayat nih!!
That’d be mine forever.

And baby, everything that I have is yours
You will never go cold or hungry
I’ll be there when you’re insecure
Let you know that you’re always lovely
Girl, 'cause you are the only thing that I got right now

One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.

We’re made for one another
Me and you
And I have no fear
I know we’ll make it through.......<< sgt2 cair dgn ayat nih!!

One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.

You’ve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
To keep you forever...  << sgt2 cair dgn ayat nih!!

can't wait too ^^,

In Silence...California King Bed

i was about to type on a poem...but i guess there are no words to describe...
describe what??
im feeling a lil bit stress...stressing on the fact that at some point...we are all in silence...

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So, how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So, how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Hello...??!

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you ...

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...

Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying ... I love you

the thumb print and me...

we are not close friends..
we are not even mere enemies...
somehow we ignore each other...
like we never existed

as the clock strikes 830
the thumb print strikes 835
what the hell i said im late 5 minutes
but my watch say im not

damn, whose fault is it??
not me im certainly not!
but the thumb print didnt say anything
it jus hanging there and watch
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hmmm
thumb print and me~~

the most memorable week-end

Syukur ke hadrat Ilahi...
these few days have been such a great days.
memorable..
unforgettable for me...
for i hope so much it will be forever..
many of you will think, what is it that make me feel so happy about these days?
its the thought, the way, the sound and the feeling inside of me...
no matter what, i will remember these days...
and im jus waiting for the right moment..
for the right time..
maybe this will be forever..
insyaAllah...

together
5 times a day
may it continue to grow and blossom for love and happiness
dunia dan akhirat
InsyaAllah

p\s: im smilling ear to ear..

Officially single but not available...

for i have recently, officially again single and not available..hahaha
how is that really???

yup, im single...available?? nope..
my heart is currently under construction..
so, if you want it...just signed in and ill get back at cha if i feel im interested ;p
hahaha..

seriously...

im waiting for next year birthday..

i dont know why, but there's something special about it ;)

242 days to go....to turn 27 years old..

ma, im old already!!

off to kajang

im going back to kajang...

>> kenapa hati berbunga dan fikiran berkecamuk...

arghh...T_T

u and i

XOXO

focus and not focus...

focus at work. not at all..im sleepy...lonely...so focusing on what will happen...
stressed..not focus..and i am missing...

where am i now..but gone with the wind.. flown away by the breeze of the sea...high up in the air...

Doa

   “Ya Allah, Tuhan yang Maha Memiliki Rahsia, Tuhan yang Maha memegang kasih sayang seluruh jiwa kami, Tuhan yang Maha Penentu, Tuhan yang Maha Menyatukan jiwa-jiwa kami, ya Allah, aku merupakan hamba yang lemah, hamba yang tidak mampu mengawal diriku daripada fitrah seorang manusia yang memerlukan teman, memerlukan kekasih, memerlukan suami/isteri, memerlukan keluarga.

    Ya Allah aku tidak mampu menahan diriku daripada terjeremus ke dalam kemaksiatan. Ya Allah, jika masanya telah tiba, jika apa yang aku mohon ini merupakan sesuatu yang terbaik disisiMu ya Allah, terbaik buat agamaku ya Allah, terbaik buat diriku, keluarga dan seluruh mukminin dan mukminat ya Allah, maka aku memohon kepadaMu ya Allah agar aku ditemukan dengan jodoh yang terbaik di sisiMu ya Allah. Setiap yang terbaik di sisiMu ya Allah, pasti terbaik buat diriku ya Allah.

    Namun ya Allah, jika masanya untuk dipertemukan dengan jodohku belum tiba ya Allah, maka ya Allah, aku memohon kepadaMu agar Kau tunjukkan jalan-jalan untuk aku memiliki jodohku ya Allah. Aku memohon agar Kau tunjukkan aku tuntutun-tuntutanMu yang perlu aku lakukan untuk memiliki jodohku ya Allah. Ya Allah, Tuhan yang Maha Memakbulkan doa, Tuhan yang Maha Penentu jodoh, ya Allah jauhilah aku daripada kemaksiatan, jauhilah aku daripada perkara-perkara yang tidak dapat memberikan manafaat, jauhilah aku dariapda perkara-perkara yang Engkau murkai dan perkara-perkara yang menyesatkan diriku ya Allah.

Amin.

woman - rib - man

pemilik tulang rusuknya - doa

Allah yang Maha Pemurah.. terima kasih Engkau telah menciptakan dia dan mempertemukan ku dengannya.

Terima kasih untuk saat-saat yang indah yang boleh kami nikmati bersama,

Terima kasih untuk setiap pertemuan yang boleh kami lalui bersama,

Terima kasih untuk setiap saat-saat yang lalu,

Aku datang bersujud di hadapan-Mu,

Sucikan hatiku Ya Allah, sehingga dapat melaksanakan kehendak dan rencana-Mu dalam hidupku.

Ya Allah, jika aku bukan pemilik tulang rusuknya,

Janganlah biarkan aku merindukan kehadirannya,

Janganlah biarkan aku melabuhkan hatiku di hatinya,

Kikislah pesonanya dari pelupuk mataku dan usirlah dia dari relung hatiku,

Gantikan damba kerinduan dan cinta yang bersemayam di dada ini dengan kasih dari dan pada-Mu yang tulus dan murni.

Tolonglah agar aku dapat mengasihinya sebagai sahabat.

Tetapi jika Kau ciptakan dia untukku, Ya Allah..

Tolonglah satukan hati kami,

Bantulah aku untuk mencintai, mengerti dan menerimanya seutuhnya,

Berikanku kesabaran, ketekunan dan kesungguhan untuk memenangi hatinya.

Tetapkanlah dia agar dia juga mencintai, mengerti dan mahu menerimaku dengan segala kelebihan dan kekuranganku sebagaimana aku telah Engkau ciptakan.

Yakinkanlah dia bahawa aku sungguh-sungguh mencintai dan rela membagi suka dan dukaku dengannya.

Ya Allah yang Maha Pengasih, dengarlah doaku ini.

Lepaskanlah aku dari keraguan ini menurut kasih dan kehendak-Mu

Allah yang Maha Kekal, aku tahu Engkau sentiasa memberikan yang terbaik buatku.

Luka dan keraguan yang aku alami pasti ada hikmahnya.

Pergumulan ini mengajar aku untuk hidup makin dekat pada-Mu, untuk lebih peka terhadap suara-Mu yang membimbing aku menuju terang-Mu.

Ajarlah aku untuk tetap setia dan sabar menanti tibanya waktu yang telah Engkau tentukan.

Jadilah kehendak-Mu dan bukan kehendakku yang jadi dalam setiap bagian hidupku, Ya Allah..

Amin..

the need...

its been awhile...
it has been tough...
lonely..
serious need the comfort...
and the attention
the reasons

i miss myself..
i don't miss that cute little girl of me
but i miss some part of me now
i want to know what i really want now
i want to know that it is what i want to achieve
i wanna be something

not doing everything that other is doing..
i am not a tradition girl
i am myself person
the one that wont run with the crowd..
the one that has her own way
the one that is tough and strong to face any challenge

i am that strong person...i can move on...even alone...

Fearless

There's somethin' 'bout the way
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement
you walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah

We're drivin' down the road
I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool
Run your hands through your hair
Absent mindedly makin' me want you

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless

So baby drive slow
'til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger's seat
You put your eyes on me
In this moment now capture it, remember it

Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless

Well you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake
I'm not usually this way but
You pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss,
It's flawless,
Really something,
It's fearless.

Oh yeah
Cause' I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless

trip to china??

im totally excited about china...i have a plan...business plan and also visiting...
my mom has been there several times due to work purposes but i think i can take advantage of her..ehhehe
^_^ can arr??
well, im excited!!

Poo Problem =_=''

seriously??!!
i hate when my parents interfere with my up bringing of Ron!!
this sucks!!
my dad let him poo around the house!! ughhh disgusting!!
now currently in JB, he's already finding a place to poo around!! aioyaaaaa..
no i have to teach him a lesson again..the poo lesson that i taught him a year ago...
iaseehhh...ROn- Ron - Ron!! you naughty boy..

well, time to shop for his poo sand again...

he's more tha 5kg now...very big boii he is..

imagination...

Albert Einstein...who is he?
(14 March 1879 – 18 April 1955) was a German-borntheoretical physicist who developed the theory of general relativity, effecting a revolution in physics. For this achievement, Einstein is often regarded as the father of modern physics and one of the most prolific intellects in human history.He received the 1921Nobel Prize in Physics "for his services to theoretical physics, and especially for his discovery of the law of the photoelectric effect". The latter was pivotal in establishing quantum theory within physics.



Imagination in this sense, not being limited to the acquisition of exact knowledge by the requirements of practical necessity, is, up to a certain point, free from objective restraints. The ability to imagine one's self in another person's place is very important to social relations and understanding.

Albert Einstein said, "Imagination ... is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."

“If the imagination is to transcend and transform experience it has to question, to challenge, to conceive of alternatives, perhaps to the very life you are living at the moment. You have to be free to play around with the notion that day might be night, love might be hate; nothing can be too sacred for the imagination to turn into its opposite or to call experimentally by another name.”
– Adrienne Rich

heading home....

heading home alone...

suddenly one thought came into mind...

can i treat men like cats?? <<<<<----this is going to create controversy ;((

since marriage seems to be out of sight...and im doing my best to be self-reliant since..ughh...never mind...i keep doing whats best for myself first...not what's best for US...that wont be necessary for now...

a change of heart?? <<<<--- this will create so many questions

no comment on that..

that is my question...is that possible to happen to me??

yes...because im human...im no superwoman...im not perfect...but i see things perfectly..and i know things can be perfect even with imperfections...just an UPGRADE!!

is that much to ask...i jus need some change...atleast an upgrade...jus like your laptop...u upgrade according to new versions of microsoft...or your antivirus...renew and upgrade each time...

wut more can i say?? =_=!!

jangan merungut dan bersyukur saja?? is that enough when you know you can do better..WTFish...

a new wedding..

cra is getting married!! yey..
tonite will be the akad..
i hope she's ready..
i know she is ready..
i pray for...
her and dearly husband of all the happiness in the world..
i know Allah will bless this marriage
Blessed with love, happiness, in faith and wealth of all..
Naseera dear,
many happiness ahead for you and Muhammad..

love you lots gurl...

discipline and me..

waking up early in the morning = big problem
be on time for work = traffic
work related = base on orders

...

so, yes..i am having discipline problems...
and i am trying and doing my best to make it right..
hope for the best outcome ;)

Q

there's a question...
is my heart still in it for it??
there's a part of me..
a question...
of why..
there's a skip of a beat..
and there's no answer to it...
that i couldn't express..
a thought..
a deep thought..
which has no way to end it..
comparisons..
ughh...and explanations that may not be the answer to it..
i look and watch from a far..
i hear and listen quietly
and i feel and touched...
deep inside my heart...
deep inside my inner soul..
deep down below..
there's a story untold...

label your friend

i recently found out there are labels for your friends....

friend for...
> happy time
> anger management time
> sad and lonely time
> gossiping time
> dark secret time
> trouble time
> dinner time
> lunch time
> cuddling time
> horror time
> crazy time
> hungry time
> gym time
> sports time
> board game time
> lost time
> powerful talk time
> mingle around time
> crazy talk time
> hate time

you may add more if you want..and tell your friend directly how they feel about the label...

my Q : are we good enough to label them?? or are we jus being that impolite...

the statement

theres a time and space and theres a moment of truth and denial of reality. where you forgot, the ones that helped you, laughed with you, sing along song with you, cried and smile with you and you just forgot to appreciate...even "hey, thank you for everything"...so, where is your manners?? did hate, sudden lost of memories or even a bad judgement turn good manners into a bad childish act or was it just a denial??

Hero.

i met a hero.
in a funeral.
gloomy faces.
tears. whispers of care.

i met his eyes
and his met mine
my heart whispers
be strong...
he nod and turn away.

condolences after another
his lips curve a warm smile
tears in the corner of his eyes
he give up his shoulder
he give up his lost
for now, its for others
mine have to wait for now.

now he's the hero
and one i cant hold on to
shared.
one that will never be my own

Its all about planning

why i feel so serabut when im looking at my organizer...
dates to fill with inspections and weddings...
and birthdays...and partey!!

^_^ i guess juggling it with the right amount of attitude (whats tht suppose to mean anyway ?? =_=!!)

Kid - the streetwalker

29/5/2011  today is chores day...

im at home..wake up late, watch tv and hv late lunch n breakfast.

it dark and stormy outside...and started to rain again..

as i wonder through my messy home in JB, im starting to think i need to get this mess out

im not a messy person...but recently, i have.

i guess theres too many things to be thrown out in my life.

as i started to wonder the underneath of my couches, i found Kid's neckbelt..

the orange with red shades bell. i wondered where he has gone to..

i miss him. and the belt seems to tell me that he's not coming home anymore and belong to the street.

is he? he's getting biggerbut at only 5 months old, he's a child...

i wonder where he is now...

the last was me nagging at that poor lil kitten for peeing inside the house..

and now, i somehow regretted that feeling..

did i throw Kid out of my life too??

Ron looked up at me when i shook the belt..maybe noticing the sound. he smells and licked it.

then again he looked me in the eyes and my heart only say "yes, i miss him too"

Defrag it

i talked to my best fwen aryn the other nite about writing..
yes, i am proned to write a lot in my younger years.
i mean...ridiculously a lot...
i guess being the lone ranger and had a lot of things going out of my mind..
owh, plus the way that i projected my imaginations...
the ridiculous imaginations...tha i still wish some of it came true...


but the group is still there...
we try to have time for us..
some go to their own separate ways..
some remain close...
some change alot..
some still hope theres more...

but everyone change...
only the kid inside us that hasnt

^_^

my friend told me that i should keep writing.
more to come? but wut to write?
my mind is full...of sh*t...
i guess its time to defrag it..
maybe my life should be defrag...
now...
and get things in line and plan of wut i want in life...
im 26 years old...
life and future isnt lying in front of us telling us wut to do...

Dont tell me now...

everyone is busy getting all relationship here and there, signed, sealed delivered to your door step...

im busy watching S** and D'city all night, wasting my time trying to figure out why ---> at times i jus watch it because im bored...

i really want a life...its not that im not living it...i guess im missing something...
im missing out myself..
maybe the fun, or the excitement...
the joy, the laugh, the hilarious jokes...

sighhh

sighhh

sighhh...yup....im sighing...and its not good!! =_=!!


so, back to the signed, sealed and delivered of relationships that will pinned you down forever...
its not that i dont believe in it...

ITS THE STRESS THAT EVERYONE IS ACTUALLY TELLING ME TO HAVE IT TOOOO!!

@_@!! yup...totally stress...the list of questions, the WHEN questionssss...never stops there!!

YUP...IM 26 YEARS OLD....owh, for crying it out loud! huhu..

well....i have a boyfriend who wants to get married....we'll have the wedding soooooooon after everybody else's wedding... :)

my mom is hectic with 4 of my cousins wedding preparation....dont think she'll have time to hear about mine...

scary thoughts!! huiiihh...

Kid is missing in action....

after 2 days letting both of my darlings out for play, Kid is missing...

total days = 4 days since 16/5/2011

i miss him...im sure Ron misses him too...i hope he's alright..anywhere with anyone...really wish that someday he'll be back running for food...

Kid..mummy miss you..im sorry...

New Kid in da House

Rescue mission....

saw a kitten just like Ron on my way back home after work...he was comot, exhausted and scared...one target that i could read from his gestures ---> crossing the busy road and survive...
he was on the road divider, trying to cover himself in the grass...panting..
i couldnt wait...look at the traffic light hoping not to turn green...i wish theres something i can do..i know..i have to..i cant leave...he looks just like Ron...arghhhh....

yup...im screaming in my head...worries in my eyes...im scared too...so, jumped out of the car trying to grab him....but he was so afraid that he scurried away under 2 cars ahead of mine...
Noo!! its green already...urghhhh!! i hate this feeling!! not being able to save him...i hope he got away fine...

but i regret...

i make a U-turn and my eyes caught him still the same place not far from the traffic light..damn..he didnt make it!
i make myself ready this time..plan on how to save him..

he was still scared...keep himself low on the ground. hoping no one will notice him..two U-turns and manage to pump petrol in my 747, he is still there..darling kitten, im trying to resist my instinct...but why?? i feel its my responsible to save him....he's so little!

part of me saying he'll survive..but my heart only scream save him...he's not going to make it alone there..i keep thinking wut if..but i dread not to think did he survive it in the middle of the night....
park my 747 in front of jusco not far from the traffic light, with the red tesco bag, me in my uniform and boots,  i cross the road safely...i need to get myself safe too right??!

didnt care about the traffic, didnt care about the eyes starring at me, i know this is something that not many people do...its hot, its dusty, its a busy road!

saw him...he make eye contact with me...kid, im gonna save ya..be still...
as i grab the back of his neck, he struggle, bit my hands, scratch my hands...
God, please dont make this more complicated....
Shhh shhh shhhs hhs shhh....

blood..yup..my hands both with blood..my blood...
thankfully, the cute lil Ron look alike kitten is in the tesco bag save and sound...
shaky bag, shaky me, i need to go to the loo...my hands bleeding and really need to go to the loo!!

hehe...well...i took lil kid home..
i got my tetanus injections for any infections by lil kid
antibiotic and got an MC too..
lil kid got his injection for deowrm and vaccine , antibiotic plus multi-vitamin from the general veterinary clinic..

now kid...yup,  i cal him kid is at home...warm and eating so much!! hehe..i hope he'll be fine

photo?? coming soon! ^_^

Dont Judge by the book...

today, Mcdonalds fav Hash Brown was mistaken as keledek goreng or fried sweet potato...hehhehee ;p

another week to end...attention...

its friday again...
yesterday i tried to blog thru my hp ---> failed!
so, im blogging now...

i take my time thinking...
i dont think no one will ever read my blog..
this is the only place i believe that no one will take a second look...
or giving me attention...

so, last night i figured about myself..
i really crave for attention...
i want people to care about me..
especially my love ones...
when they dont..i guess i tend to slip away...

i remember that one time when i was 8 or 9 years old...
i will sleep in the same bedroom with my parents..
i wanted attention and i decided to sleep on the cold floor...
i waited for my parents to pick me up from the floor...i want to be love that way..
to know they care...i guess, i did slept on the cold floor...
i still feel the same thing..i want to know that they really care..
show me how they really care...
show me their love for me...
i guess this goes to my boyfriend too...

i am so sure that none of this post will be read by my boyfriend...
or my parents..or my siblings nor any of my family...
i read my sisters blogs...they have their own way to express things..
heart, feelings, doubts, problems, relationship..and self...

i really want attention...
i dont think that he's giving me much attention that i want...
i dont think that he notice..
i need attention...
otherwise....i will slip away and soon be gone...
and in the end, its a little too late to have me back...

i know RON is craving for attention...

alot...

attention...

tell me...

im not sure..im away from my family for a long time...
my mom always story  my grandma about me...
my sisters blogs about how they hate each other.. Aihh
me..im standing here aloneeeeyy ~~
owh..with RON of course..
.
.
.
just tell me up front ok...
wut u say may hurt me...
but saying things behind my back
or knowing from other people hurts too..

just tell me...

and i will be fine... :)

migrate docs

crazy laaa all these docs have to migrate...
me = O.o
me = +_=
me = ~_~
me = .............>--->0............die clicking on the buttons :((

its flyday today!!!

its friday and its freakin friday and me @ the office now...done lunch and havent done any of my work...
all the time wit twitting and FBeing...aiyaaaaa...

nadiahhhh...go and do your work!!!

hurm....y so malas one?? :P

O.o

i really need something to focus on.....

=_= but what really??

Ya Rabbiii...please guide me through!!!

McDonalds in the office...

Thanks to my dear boss for the Double Fillet O fish...^_^ den konyang sudah!!

~~still waiting for 830pm..time for badminton! ^.^