off to kajang

im going back to kajang...

>> kenapa hati berbunga dan fikiran berkecamuk...

arghh...T_T

u and i

XOXO

focus and not focus...

focus at work. not at all..im sleepy...lonely...so focusing on what will happen...
stressed..not focus..and i am missing...

where am i now..but gone with the wind.. flown away by the breeze of the sea...high up in the air...

Doa

   “Ya Allah, Tuhan yang Maha Memiliki Rahsia, Tuhan yang Maha memegang kasih sayang seluruh jiwa kami, Tuhan yang Maha Penentu, Tuhan yang Maha Menyatukan jiwa-jiwa kami, ya Allah, aku merupakan hamba yang lemah, hamba yang tidak mampu mengawal diriku daripada fitrah seorang manusia yang memerlukan teman, memerlukan kekasih, memerlukan suami/isteri, memerlukan keluarga.

    Ya Allah aku tidak mampu menahan diriku daripada terjeremus ke dalam kemaksiatan. Ya Allah, jika masanya telah tiba, jika apa yang aku mohon ini merupakan sesuatu yang terbaik disisiMu ya Allah, terbaik buat agamaku ya Allah, terbaik buat diriku, keluarga dan seluruh mukminin dan mukminat ya Allah, maka aku memohon kepadaMu ya Allah agar aku ditemukan dengan jodoh yang terbaik di sisiMu ya Allah. Setiap yang terbaik di sisiMu ya Allah, pasti terbaik buat diriku ya Allah.

    Namun ya Allah, jika masanya untuk dipertemukan dengan jodohku belum tiba ya Allah, maka ya Allah, aku memohon kepadaMu agar Kau tunjukkan jalan-jalan untuk aku memiliki jodohku ya Allah. Aku memohon agar Kau tunjukkan aku tuntutun-tuntutanMu yang perlu aku lakukan untuk memiliki jodohku ya Allah. Ya Allah, Tuhan yang Maha Memakbulkan doa, Tuhan yang Maha Penentu jodoh, ya Allah jauhilah aku daripada kemaksiatan, jauhilah aku daripada perkara-perkara yang tidak dapat memberikan manafaat, jauhilah aku dariapda perkara-perkara yang Engkau murkai dan perkara-perkara yang menyesatkan diriku ya Allah.

Amin.

woman - rib - man

pemilik tulang rusuknya - doa

Allah yang Maha Pemurah.. terima kasih Engkau telah menciptakan dia dan mempertemukan ku dengannya.

Terima kasih untuk saat-saat yang indah yang boleh kami nikmati bersama,

Terima kasih untuk setiap pertemuan yang boleh kami lalui bersama,

Terima kasih untuk setiap saat-saat yang lalu,

Aku datang bersujud di hadapan-Mu,

Sucikan hatiku Ya Allah, sehingga dapat melaksanakan kehendak dan rencana-Mu dalam hidupku.

Ya Allah, jika aku bukan pemilik tulang rusuknya,

Janganlah biarkan aku merindukan kehadirannya,

Janganlah biarkan aku melabuhkan hatiku di hatinya,

Kikislah pesonanya dari pelupuk mataku dan usirlah dia dari relung hatiku,

Gantikan damba kerinduan dan cinta yang bersemayam di dada ini dengan kasih dari dan pada-Mu yang tulus dan murni.

Tolonglah agar aku dapat mengasihinya sebagai sahabat.

Tetapi jika Kau ciptakan dia untukku, Ya Allah..

Tolonglah satukan hati kami,

Bantulah aku untuk mencintai, mengerti dan menerimanya seutuhnya,

Berikanku kesabaran, ketekunan dan kesungguhan untuk memenangi hatinya.

Tetapkanlah dia agar dia juga mencintai, mengerti dan mahu menerimaku dengan segala kelebihan dan kekuranganku sebagaimana aku telah Engkau ciptakan.

Yakinkanlah dia bahawa aku sungguh-sungguh mencintai dan rela membagi suka dan dukaku dengannya.

Ya Allah yang Maha Pengasih, dengarlah doaku ini.

Lepaskanlah aku dari keraguan ini menurut kasih dan kehendak-Mu

Allah yang Maha Kekal, aku tahu Engkau sentiasa memberikan yang terbaik buatku.

Luka dan keraguan yang aku alami pasti ada hikmahnya.

Pergumulan ini mengajar aku untuk hidup makin dekat pada-Mu, untuk lebih peka terhadap suara-Mu yang membimbing aku menuju terang-Mu.

Ajarlah aku untuk tetap setia dan sabar menanti tibanya waktu yang telah Engkau tentukan.

Jadilah kehendak-Mu dan bukan kehendakku yang jadi dalam setiap bagian hidupku, Ya Allah..

Amin..

the need...

its been awhile...
it has been tough...
lonely..
serious need the comfort...
and the attention
the reasons

i miss myself..
i don't miss that cute little girl of me
but i miss some part of me now
i want to know what i really want now
i want to know that it is what i want to achieve
i wanna be something

not doing everything that other is doing..
i am not a tradition girl
i am myself person
the one that wont run with the crowd..
the one that has her own way
the one that is tough and strong to face any challenge

i am that strong person...i can move on...even alone...

Fearless

There's somethin' 'bout the way
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement
you walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah

We're drivin' down the road
I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool
Run your hands through your hair
Absent mindedly makin' me want you

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless

So baby drive slow
'til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger's seat
You put your eyes on me
In this moment now capture it, remember it

Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless

Well you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake
I'm not usually this way but
You pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss,
It's flawless,
Really something,
It's fearless.

Oh yeah
Cause' I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless

trip to china??

im totally excited about china...i have a plan...business plan and also visiting...
my mom has been there several times due to work purposes but i think i can take advantage of her..ehhehe
^_^ can arr??
well, im excited!!

Poo Problem =_=''

seriously??!!
i hate when my parents interfere with my up bringing of Ron!!
this sucks!!
my dad let him poo around the house!! ughhh disgusting!!
now currently in JB, he's already finding a place to poo around!! aioyaaaaa..
no i have to teach him a lesson again..the poo lesson that i taught him a year ago...
iaseehhh...ROn- Ron - Ron!! you naughty boy..

well, time to shop for his poo sand again...

he's more tha 5kg now...very big boii he is..

imagination...

Albert Einstein...who is he?
(14 March 1879 – 18 April 1955) was a German-borntheoretical physicist who developed the theory of general relativity, effecting a revolution in physics. For this achievement, Einstein is often regarded as the father of modern physics and one of the most prolific intellects in human history.He received the 1921Nobel Prize in Physics "for his services to theoretical physics, and especially for his discovery of the law of the photoelectric effect". The latter was pivotal in establishing quantum theory within physics.



Imagination in this sense, not being limited to the acquisition of exact knowledge by the requirements of practical necessity, is, up to a certain point, free from objective restraints. The ability to imagine one's self in another person's place is very important to social relations and understanding.

Albert Einstein said, "Imagination ... is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."

“If the imagination is to transcend and transform experience it has to question, to challenge, to conceive of alternatives, perhaps to the very life you are living at the moment. You have to be free to play around with the notion that day might be night, love might be hate; nothing can be too sacred for the imagination to turn into its opposite or to call experimentally by another name.”
– Adrienne Rich

heading home....

heading home alone...

suddenly one thought came into mind...

can i treat men like cats?? <<<<<----this is going to create controversy ;((

since marriage seems to be out of sight...and im doing my best to be self-reliant since..ughh...never mind...i keep doing whats best for myself first...not what's best for US...that wont be necessary for now...

a change of heart?? <<<<--- this will create so many questions

no comment on that..

that is my question...is that possible to happen to me??

yes...because im human...im no superwoman...im not perfect...but i see things perfectly..and i know things can be perfect even with imperfections...just an UPGRADE!!

is that much to ask...i jus need some change...atleast an upgrade...jus like your laptop...u upgrade according to new versions of microsoft...or your antivirus...renew and upgrade each time...

wut more can i say?? =_=!!

jangan merungut dan bersyukur saja?? is that enough when you know you can do better..WTFish...

a new wedding..

cra is getting married!! yey..
tonite will be the akad..
i hope she's ready..
i know she is ready..
i pray for...
her and dearly husband of all the happiness in the world..
i know Allah will bless this marriage
Blessed with love, happiness, in faith and wealth of all..
Naseera dear,
many happiness ahead for you and Muhammad..

love you lots gurl...

discipline and me..

waking up early in the morning = big problem
be on time for work = traffic
work related = base on orders

...

so, yes..i am having discipline problems...
and i am trying and doing my best to make it right..
hope for the best outcome ;)

Q

there's a question...
is my heart still in it for it??
there's a part of me..
a question...
of why..
there's a skip of a beat..
and there's no answer to it...
that i couldn't express..
a thought..
a deep thought..
which has no way to end it..
comparisons..
ughh...and explanations that may not be the answer to it..
i look and watch from a far..
i hear and listen quietly
and i feel and touched...
deep inside my heart...
deep inside my inner soul..
deep down below..
there's a story untold...