Hero.

i met a hero.
in a funeral.
gloomy faces.
tears. whispers of care.

i met his eyes
and his met mine
my heart whispers
be strong...
he nod and turn away.

condolences after another
his lips curve a warm smile
tears in the corner of his eyes
he give up his shoulder
he give up his lost
for now, its for others
mine have to wait for now.

now he's the hero
and one i cant hold on to
shared.
one that will never be my own

Its all about planning

why i feel so serabut when im looking at my organizer...
dates to fill with inspections and weddings...
and birthdays...and partey!!

^_^ i guess juggling it with the right amount of attitude (whats tht suppose to mean anyway ?? =_=!!)

Kid - the streetwalker

29/5/2011  today is chores day...

im at home..wake up late, watch tv and hv late lunch n breakfast.

it dark and stormy outside...and started to rain again..

as i wonder through my messy home in JB, im starting to think i need to get this mess out

im not a messy person...but recently, i have.

i guess theres too many things to be thrown out in my life.

as i started to wonder the underneath of my couches, i found Kid's neckbelt..

the orange with red shades bell. i wondered where he has gone to..

i miss him. and the belt seems to tell me that he's not coming home anymore and belong to the street.

is he? he's getting biggerbut at only 5 months old, he's a child...

i wonder where he is now...

the last was me nagging at that poor lil kitten for peeing inside the house..

and now, i somehow regretted that feeling..

did i throw Kid out of my life too??

Ron looked up at me when i shook the belt..maybe noticing the sound. he smells and licked it.

then again he looked me in the eyes and my heart only say "yes, i miss him too"

Defrag it

i talked to my best fwen aryn the other nite about writing..
yes, i am proned to write a lot in my younger years.
i mean...ridiculously a lot...
i guess being the lone ranger and had a lot of things going out of my mind..
owh, plus the way that i projected my imaginations...
the ridiculous imaginations...tha i still wish some of it came true...


but the group is still there...
we try to have time for us..
some go to their own separate ways..
some remain close...
some change alot..
some still hope theres more...

but everyone change...
only the kid inside us that hasnt

^_^

my friend told me that i should keep writing.
more to come? but wut to write?
my mind is full...of sh*t...
i guess its time to defrag it..
maybe my life should be defrag...
now...
and get things in line and plan of wut i want in life...
im 26 years old...
life and future isnt lying in front of us telling us wut to do...

Dont tell me now...

everyone is busy getting all relationship here and there, signed, sealed delivered to your door step...

im busy watching S** and D'city all night, wasting my time trying to figure out why ---> at times i jus watch it because im bored...

i really want a life...its not that im not living it...i guess im missing something...
im missing out myself..
maybe the fun, or the excitement...
the joy, the laugh, the hilarious jokes...

sighhh

sighhh

sighhh...yup....im sighing...and its not good!! =_=!!


so, back to the signed, sealed and delivered of relationships that will pinned you down forever...
its not that i dont believe in it...

ITS THE STRESS THAT EVERYONE IS ACTUALLY TELLING ME TO HAVE IT TOOOO!!

@_@!! yup...totally stress...the list of questions, the WHEN questionssss...never stops there!!

YUP...IM 26 YEARS OLD....owh, for crying it out loud! huhu..

well....i have a boyfriend who wants to get married....we'll have the wedding soooooooon after everybody else's wedding... :)

my mom is hectic with 4 of my cousins wedding preparation....dont think she'll have time to hear about mine...

scary thoughts!! huiiihh...

Kid is missing in action....

after 2 days letting both of my darlings out for play, Kid is missing...

total days = 4 days since 16/5/2011

i miss him...im sure Ron misses him too...i hope he's alright..anywhere with anyone...really wish that someday he'll be back running for food...

Kid..mummy miss you..im sorry...