I See the Light ~ Tangled

All those days

Watching from the windows

All those years

Outside looking in

All that time

Never even knowing

Just how blind I’ve been

Now I’m here

Blinking in the starlight

Now I’m here

Suddenly I see

Standing here

It’s oh, so clear

I’m where I’m meant to be

And at last, I see the light

And it’s like the fog has lifted

And at last, I see the light

And it’s like the sky is new

And it’s warm and real and bright

And the world has somehow shifted

All at once

Everything looks different

Now that I see you

All those days

Chasing down a daydream

All those years

Living in a blur

All that time

Never truly seeing

Things the way they were

Now she’s here

Shining in the starlight

Now she’s here

Suddenly I know

If she’s here

It’s crystal clear

I’m where I’m meant to go

And at last, I see the light

And it’s like the fog has lifted

And at last, I see the light

And it’s like the sky is new

And it’s warm and real and bright

And the world has somehow shifted

All at once

Everything is different

Now that I see you

Now that I see you

Terrified

You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need
If you let me try

[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/katharine-mcphee-lyrics/terrified-lyrics.html ]
You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

Elynn: Golden in the Dark

I am home..i attended Elynn's wedding reception at Flamingo Hotel today...Im glad to help her out on the guest placement...maybe it wasnt as perfect as planned..but things went well...everyone got there own seats without the reserved table being open..so...it was oklah...

Elynn dear...the white dress was perfecto!! cantek sgt2...and the makeup looks so beautiful..like i say...perfecto...
the second dress was gorgeous...love so much on the details...plus it look so beautiful in the light...

I say...ure the golden girl that lights up in the dark...i am happy to see u up there...
its like a fairytale came true...no more dreams...ur wedding happens..hehhe

i am happy to be a part of ur wedding...im in tears after the akad...in tears again when u sit at the stage...in tears more when u catch a glimpse of us from ur dining table...i am happy..so so happy for u...

Elynn dear...congratulations...semoga Allah swt sentiasa merahmati masjid yg dibina kamu berdua ^_^!!

When its Saturday morning...

I woke up when i heard my hp rings at 6 am...
I woke up when my dad wakes me for Subuh prayer...
I woke up when Ron begs for kibbles and water by 830am...owh Ron...
I woke up reading a text message from Bebear, "morning shayang"...no feelings at the moment
I woke up smelling my moms cooking for breakfast...Roti canai and sardin...
I woke up hearing my mom yelling out to my sisters...going to shah alam..
I woke up trying to get myself to sleep for more...
I woke up knowing I couldnt sleep anymore...
I woke up tired and heartless.."morning"
I woke up not wanting to do anything...
but this post...
theres much to do...i remember...
to please everyone in certain manners...
sacrifices in a lot of ways...
but i am honored...
for doing everything that i can...

a downside of it all...when there's too much of 'I'

this is much more of a feeling to tell about...i am not that sure how to put things in place...generally, all i am is emotionally unstable..

for what reason should i be?

i should be happy...have a good job in hand that involves everything, multiple skills, from technical to people skills, a secure place and salary is not quite bad only that u are 300km away from home...
that doesnt kill me...i am independant..

what else is there?

maybe family...but i have a loving family...only that i am not as close to my mom or dad...but i still kiss them whenever i arrived home, hugged them whenever i can...but there's still a gap..a wall maybe..but still, they are always around when i am home...
half a wall between doesnt kill me...i am dependable

so, what is the problem then?

love...this is when i get speechless...lost of thoughts and words...i dont know...
'i dont know'?
love should be...love...
but love for me nowadays seems to have been stripped from me...ever since the fight...ever since the funeral...ever since the resentment...ever since that i felt being used and told...

was i wrong to be emotionally unstable because of love??
was i wrong for asking more attention because there wasnt much of it left for me??
was i wrong for not wanting to do what i am told??
was i the wrong person here??

love..for i have sacrifice more than i needed to...that i hv not yet counted all the silly little things...
the tears i left on my favorite pillow alone..sobbing...hating the softness that i am...wishing that this
ungrateful heart to stop beating...

was i ungrateful?

there is too much I...which i dont like...I sacrifice, I do, I give...with all my heart...

there is too much I in this post...

was i selfish of what i wanted from love??

there's too much I....

i am keeping the friendster blog...

im goin to keep the friendster blog updated..as well as this one..i hvnt chose any yet..but i dont know lah..haha...

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today is not a good day..damn it it is not a good day at all!

aku tension!

aku tension!

aiyaaa~~

i have a blog @fwenster...
aishhhh...
wuttodo now meh??

cooking @ home

im in the office...i know-i know i should be working at all times...but taking a 5mins break and i forgot that i did build a blog...

so to tell u all the story in the morning glory (which is now 3.05pm and raining outside) is a long way to go but...i think i have a sickness...

sickness??

yup....cooooooking!! well, inspired by the movie called Julie n Julia or the other way around help me see thru things...since facebook is now eligible at certain times, i have my time limit on the internet. so, my stressful day (not that stressful, but im stress alot lately) ends by cooking..

wut to cook?? ------>> alot of pasta making!!

hey, i am learning...and Ron get sick of waiting, smelling, meow'ing at me for some ; tho i dont hv the heart to give him anyway! @_@!!

so..maybe i'll just post up anything that im cooking..can?? hehehee

yummy (my stomach grumbling for food!)

what is ur kind of disney?

as a child i remember quoting every single line of the lion king with my little brother akmal... from being Simba, the baby lion to Edd, the crazy hyenas. i remember singing every tune of the happy endings of songs...akunamatata; it means no worries for the rest of your days...its our problem free philosophy...

i quote every Disney's cartoon movies as long as i remember...my dream..is always to fall in love with a handsome prince; Aladdin...he's funny, he's charming and he's always hard to get...and he respects the kind of love that he found...with jasmine..."do you trust me?" he asked jasmine as he offered her to ride on the magic carpet...for believing in him, jasmine found her love and the truth...but love, love always conquers all one character that i always fond of is Ariel, the daughter of the sea king...i forgot that ol' man name...huhu...sorry Daddy! she's a red headed with a big one...but i always love her spirits..she wants to know every single thing that comes her way..."but who cares, no big deal..i want more"

she wants to walk, to run and to dance...and she falls in love along the way...used to laugh aloud when that old seagull started to sing when ariel and eric is in a bot...singing kiss the gurl by dear red crab..i forgot his name too!! but dear ol Flounder that always tail her way...

then again, as i grew up, i started to forget...dreams are just dreams..my old dreams is unreachable...my passion is still undeniable in my heart..im angry and envy..and hurt...

i choose to revenge on me out of love that doesnt exist to me...i regret of the path that i chose and regret it for the rest of my life...and it is lesson for me to take

...i am now, existing in between...somewhat i am lost...i choose to love but not to love dearly...i chose to live but i live in exile of my own world...how can that be?

but i agree, i chose to be this way..only i that can change...or to let go and start a new?? i am not sure...

so, what is ur kind of Disney that gives u dream...that make u believe...

cont' later aite..sleep time...out-0050

Dear Diary...

well, dear diary..
had alot on my mind - my mind is now full- so, i cannot think of anything - tired - in the office - late late late - lazy ass - eat and sleep all the time - im so feddup...

so, everytime im driving around town - goin back from work - goin to work - my mind is anywhere else - im not looking where im goin, usually lorr - and im thinking, all the time...so im tired...writing?? i wish i did do that...but after work ---> lazy ass...

so, im blogging at the moment...can't i??

well, dear diary...more coming up

(^^,)