Monday, January 16, 2012

what do i want??

Most of the time, i dont really know what i want...
i remember all my life growing up, i put others first...i did...
and mostly, my mom will select things for me...
i live with what i think i can buy, what i think i can afford, what i think necessary...
because i know, asking money from my parents is like a nightmare...
because i know, they have other things to worry about...

i sat down one night at the edge of my bed, wondering...
what i really want for my hantaran...
what i really want from my bridal...
what i really want from my wedding ceremony...
its...jus one day...
but...once in a lifetime....that one is what i hope for...forever...
once in a lifetime and to spend thousands RM for it...
does it have to be like that??

all i know, ive made a few steps...

>>> i want the ceremony in shades of pink...or red...but i really wanted red...
but H2B said "huh, red??!" with a weird look on his face =_=!! so..ok..no red...
when i say pink, everyone seem unlikely to like the idea. bcz not all men want to wear pink
..ok fine, mixture of pink n silver..

>>>i want things to be simple...hantaran things??
the only one thought that i want is BodyShop thingyss...bcoz i jus love Bodyshop things...
then wut?? perfume?? mistakely i bought 'the perfume' too soon n became history..i shouldve waited..
i know i should..so, right now, i dont really want to buy perfume...
wut else?? baju = recycle from Pasar Payang Tganu...bcz its shades of pink n maroon and i didnt made the baju yet...the guess bag?? i tot it would ruin the whole thing..its big n bulky...i hv second tots about it...
no kasut, no perfume, no make ups, no small handbag...what is it that i want??

enuf with the sighing...
we dont usually get what we want..
and yes, i rather give up all that i have jus to gain that one precious thing from my dear H2B...
>>> Your time for attention, affection, care and love... <<<

that is all that im asking...that is all i want...

about the wedding...i dont really mind...jus as long as everyone is happy about it...



2 comments:

  1. hye awk...
    dun worry..
    during my engagement, d grooms side decided not to give any hantaran..
    and the moment i knew it..
    i was so down
    coz ms engagement..
    i didnt ask for the stuffs that i want like hand bag, shoes, make ups..etc..
    and my aunts is making a fuss about it..
    then i took sometimes..act few days to think about it..
    and i realize that's not even important for my wedds..
    all i want is juz to tying the knot to make the relationship legal in islam..
    so then, i never questioned about it and when people ask me how many dulang for hantaran..
    i said 3 which is d ring, mas kahwin and wang hantaran..
    and when they ask me x de barang2 ke?
    i said its ok..u can buy after kahwnin kan?
    and i plan to give him 5..but his mom said..
    no need..they dun act expect me to balas blk ..

    and u can look at the positive side which is the more u ask for hantaran.
    the more u have to give to him rite?
    ye la d bride;s have to give extra 2 kan..

    and actually hantaran is actually adat yg org buat..
    well act u can save more then ms dh kawen u can asked something much more expensive..

    juz a 2cents from my opinion...

    keep in touch and all d best in ur preparations..May Allah bless u with rezq..insyaAllah

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  2. dear dalila,
    tq sooo much..
    its a relief..
    tp tu lah, bcoz his side..mmg nak macam2..well, i tak kesah sgt..its his money, so he can buy everything that he wants..
    so far, our parents let us decide ourself...so mmg kene decide lorr..huhu
    owh, fyi, i takde engagement ceremony, time risik terus tunang..huuuu...mmg takde dulang2 nih, h2b jus bawak cincin risik jer..huhu
    so far brg2 sume dah ada..plus minus je...hopefully it goes well...huhu
    thank u dear...its more than jus a 2cents from u...mungkin 50cent!! :)

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