Most of the time, i dont really know what i want...
i remember all my life growing up, i put others first...i did...
and mostly, my mom will select things for me...
i live with what i think i can buy, what i think i can afford, what i think necessary...
because i know, asking money from my parents is like a nightmare...
because i know, they have other things to worry about...
i sat down one night at the edge of my bed, wondering...
what i really want for my hantaran...
what i really want from my bridal...
what i really want from my wedding ceremony...
its...jus one day...
but...once in a lifetime....that one is what i hope for...forever...
once in a lifetime and to spend thousands RM for it...
does it have to be like that??
all i know, ive made a few steps...
>>> i want the ceremony in shades of pink...or red...but i really wanted red...
but H2B said "huh, red??!" with a weird look on his face =_=!! so..ok..no red...
when i say pink, everyone seem unlikely to like the idea. bcz not all men want to wear pink
..ok fine, mixture of pink n silver..
>>>i want things to be simple...hantaran things??
the only one thought that i want is BodyShop thingyss...bcoz i jus love Bodyshop things...
then wut?? perfume?? mistakely i bought 'the perfume' too soon n became history..i shouldve waited..
i know i should..so, right now, i dont really want to buy perfume...
wut else?? baju = recycle from Pasar Payang Tganu...bcz its shades of pink n maroon and i didnt made the baju yet...the guess bag?? i tot it would ruin the whole thing..its big n bulky...i hv second tots about it...
no kasut, no perfume, no make ups, no small handbag...what is it that i want??
enuf with the sighing...
we dont usually get what we want..
and yes, i rather give up all that i have jus to gain that one precious thing from my dear H2B...
>>> Your time for attention, affection, care and love... <<<
that is all that im asking...that is all i want...
about the wedding...i dont really mind...jus as long as everyone is happy about it...
